You're My Sweetheart

Hope everyone had a most fabulous Valentine's Day! I must admit I had a great one--dressing up for a fancy dinner out with friends followed by a couch-viewing of "Crazy, Stupid Love". And I truly believe this was the first Valentine's that I was not painfully aware of the fact that I am single. I thoroughly enjoyed the night, and honestly wanted for nothing more. I think I'm beginning to see how single-hood has its place and purpose in my life. God and I sure are spending more quality time together; and while it could always be more, I am noticing it becoming more authentic now in my life. I'm beginning to find myself in the midst of a more robust, but fulfilling schedule for life, and I love it! The only thing I could say I truly yearn for is more adventures (not all who wander are lost, right??). But not so much for a "better half", or even another half at all. It is still a day-to-day struggle, but I think I have made a lot of progress!

Have a great weekend, loves. Oh P.S., been reading some pretty killer novels lately. Would love to pass on some recommendations if you're in the mood!

“There is much more strength in a man who reveals himself only when it is necessary. I have suffered from being alone, but because I have been able to keep my secret I have overcome the suffering of loneliness … And, today, there is no greater joy than to live alone and unknown. My deepest joy is to write. To accept the world and to accept pleasure—but only when I am stripped bare of everything. I should not be worthy to love the bare and empty beaches if I could not remain naked in the presence of myself. For the first time I can understand the meaning of the word happiness without any ambiguity. It is a little different from what men normally mean when they say: ‘I am happy.’ A certain persistence in despair finally gives birth to joy … And if I now feel that I have come to a turning point in my life, this not because of what I have won but because of what I have lost. Within me, I feel a deep and intense strength that will enable me to live as I intend. If, today, I feel so distant from everything, it is because I have strength only to love and to admire. Life with its face of tears and sun, life in the salt sea and on warm stones, life as I love and understand it—as I caress it I feel my love and despair gathering strength within me. Today is not like a resting place between ‘yes’ and ‘no.’ It is both ‘yes’ and ‘no.’ ‘No,’ and rebellion against everything which is not tears and sunlight. ‘Yes’ to my life, whose future promise I now feel within myself for the first time.” Albert Camus, Notebooks

Where The Light Enters

"The wound is the place where

The Light enters you."

-Rumi

Tonight I find my soul overwhelmed by the loveliness of the grace of my God. He is sufficient to save my soul; to enrapture it in true love; to collect every piece of me and put it back together; to break me and mold me back into the woman He has marveled me to be. I am excited to see the way God works in my life over the rest of this semester. I say this because today I heard a sermon on Ecclesiastes 4:6, "Better one handful with tranquility than two handfuls with toil.." and it really clicked today that to have one hand open to God means exactly what it says. If I would stop clenching and holding on so tightly to that which is not meant for me and instead leave one hand open to hold God's hand (like that of a child of God) and to receive that which he has meant and reserved for just me, I would be so much better for it. 

I have a few prayer requests on my heart, and I think there is no better method to let the angel armies work on them than to commit them to writing. Tonight I pray for a heart so full of peace that it leaves room only for God and his will to be done. I pray for my friends as they explore what it means to be young adults and soon what it means to venture out into His world to commit His will to His people. I pray for the adventures of this summer! I am truly looking forward to them. I pray for my sorority that it will continue to flourish as it has and that I will be renewed in the sense of loyalty that it inspires. I pray for my University because it truly has believed in me when I have not believed in myself. I pray for my dear family. It has been far too long since I have been home (I'm being dramatic, but I'm homesick for them all the time!) and I know they are all super busy. I pray that they see the good of their works and that they are honored in God's glory. I pray for India, the place has my heartstrings. I pray for you if you're reading this because that makes me super happy! I pray for our world and our leadership that we will find God's light in everything broken and we will let Him heal us. 

Have a great week and may your hearts be open to the light.

K